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Ennui. :P

2006-01-07T17:10:00.000-08:00

Ennui-noun.-boredom

LOL. Weird words suddenly came up rushing into my mind for no reason at all. How bizarre. Hmm. Anyways, this week was totally absurd and miserable. Three days ago, I was sort of sad and I felt quite responsible for making myself feel that way. See? That's how weird I am. I can totally ruin my life. MY LIFE. Then, i showed signs of being effervescent yesterday. Well, problems come and go, and my problem just went way in an instant. But, the truth is, I actually told myself not think of it again and not let myself be affected. Sensitivity is what's killing me. And now, I'm in a state of ennui-ness. Haha!! Shame on me. I should not let boredom get into my way.

ok.. i guess ayus na un.. ahaha!! aii.. alam nio ba.. nakikinig ako ngayon sa album na 'ultraelectromagneticjam'.. ahihi.. various artists yan na ang lahat ng kanta is from eraserheads.. ahihi.. maganda ung version ng 6 cycle mind ng alapaap.. haaii.. pero mas maganda pa rin ung original from eraserheads.. ahaha!!.. :P aun.. anyways.. feel ko.. ktampo nanamn xken bes ko.. haaii.. nanamn.. anu ba yan.. ewanq kng bkt ganun.. tuwing tatawag xia.. laging ngkakataon na kakain na kami.. mei pupuntahan kmi.. bsta lgi akong may gagawin.. haaii.. tapos.. ayw pa ako kausapin.. hmmf.. ok.. sorry na kng d ako nakatawag nung night na un nung cnabi ko na.. 'cge kain lng kme.. tatawag ulit ako'.. sorry.. after xe ng dinner.. ung dad ko.. xbe xken.. 'kaye.. rosary lng tau sandali'.. edi xempre.. sinunod ko un bgo ko xia tawagan.. ehh malas ko nga alng.. after ng rosary nmn.. bawalng gamitin ung fone.. muntik na nga kming mg away ng mom ko.. tpos aun.. inexpect ko na nung night na un.. na medio mgiging ganun nanamn c bes.. haaii.. pero.. ako bahala dun.. mamaya tatawagan ko un.. pag di nanamn nia sinagot.. bukas!.. sa school.. hmmff.. prang ako pa tuloy ung nag hahabol.. pero d nmn dpat.. aiiii naku!!.. :( pro aus lng.. pg d pa tlga nia ako pinancn.. haii.. titigil na ako..

aun.. grabe.. mei concert pla backstreet boys sa phlippines.. ahaha!!.. sana payagan ako.. trip kong pumunta ehh.. kng sakaling payagan.. cguro kng hndi frends ko ang ksama ko.. ung pinsan ko na lng.. ahahaha!!.. tapos.. pupunta din sa philippines ang WWE.. huwaw!.. punta kaya ako??.. ahahahaha!!.. ewan q.. feel ko mahal ung ticket.. pro ewan q.. ahihih.. and speaking of concerts, etc.. mei play kami sa january 29.. waahh!!.. xna onti manuod.. ahahahah!!.. pra d ako kabahan.. khit ba na double lng ako ni joy.. ako nmn unang lalabas.. tpos.. khit wala akong gagawin kundi sumayaw.. ang haba haba nmn nugn number kong un.. grabe.. sana ma perfect ko.. at xna di ko din makalimutan.. ahahaha!!.. good luck na lng sken.. pti na sa partner kong c adonai.. at sa mga mibang meperformers na din.. ahihih.. d ako excited actually.. nakaka stress icpin.. costume pa lng.. problemado na ako.. pnu na kya sa performance day? xna nmn indi.. ahahaha!!.. kakapalan ko n lng face ko.. tapos.. aii nku.. xna nmn walang unexpected visitor/s na manonood.. grabe.. xna wala...

madaming ngyayari sken ngaun.. sobra.. as in prng arw arw.. lgi akong mei naririnig na chismax tungkol sken.. anu ba yn!!.. prng.. lgi n lng ksama ako.. haaii.. mnsn.. pg nakaalm ako ng mga gnun.. d n lng ako ngsasalita.. d ko na lng pinapaalm na alm ko.. kxe bka.. pg nalamn nila na alm ko.. bka palalain lng nila.. katulad n lng nung dti.. aii!!.. pkialamera ksi.. hmmff.. grabeh.. sana mging ok n lhat.. xna matuto na siya/silang hndi maki alm lalo na pg ang babaw kng uungkatin pa.. at pg d nmn dpt paki alamn.. hmff.. new year na po.. xna ngbabago na tayo.. d p nmn huli ang lhat.. :) tsaka.. kng wala na.. WLA NA!.. ok?.. ang abnormal kxe ehh.. haii.. change topic...

grabe.. ang mga rants ng life ko.. ahihihi.. anyways.. till next time na lng..

Happy New Year!

2005-12-31T00:25:00.000-08:00

haha!!.. yey!!.. i have actually finished my second layout.. haha!!.. medio simple po xia.. pro aus na din.. dark colors again.. haaii.. i have always like anything dark/underground.. gets?.. i'm no goth.. but i do love skulls.. and most especially.. lahat ng tungkol sa pagiging.. broken hearted.. kahit di naman ako ganun.. haha!!.. i swear!!.. di ko talaga alam kung bakit.. anyways.. malapit na poh ang new year!!.. medio excited na ako.. xe 2006 na.. haha!!.. i'm gonna turn 15 na on april.. tapos.. i'm going in to my last high school year.. the senior year.. haaii.. ang bilis ng high school life ko.. then next year.. college na.. haha!!.. ang bilis talaga!!.. :)

anyways.. this morning.. ginising ako ng maaga ng parents ko.. xe pupunta daw kami sa house ng cousins ko.. ahihi.. tapos.. kinuha din namin dun ung padala ng aunt ko galing california.. haha!!.. may lamang cash para sa akin tsaka sa brothe rko!!.. haha!!.. salamat po!!.. then.. hanggang mga 2 pm ata kami dun.. then nagpunta kami ng cc pra mag grocery.. ahihi.. bumili xe ng foods for the new year celebration mamaya.. aun.. tapos nakalimutan ko ding bumili ng ps2 cd's sa cc.. sayang!!.. then.. pagka uwi sa bahay.. bumili lang ako ng r.o. load.. tapos.. bot mode na hunter ko.. kaka 71 nia lang ngayon.. xe x5 po ngaun.. haha!!.. then.. wala na.. haha!!.. aun.. tapos ng icon hunting ako yesterday.. here's what i got *ayos lang po kung kunin nio.. wag lang po mag direct link!!.. :)*

ang cute ng mga icons.. ahihi.. wala lang.. anyways.. i hope na.. this coming year.. maging okay lahat.. sana.. magkaroon na din ng pagbabago ang buhay ko.. ahihi.. haaii.. grabe.. pag naaalala ko ung mga nangyari nitong year na ito.. parang natatawa na lang ako.. lalo na dun sa mga katangahan ko.. ahahaha!!.. sobra!!.. pero xempre.. mei mga bagay din na hindi ko pedeng kalimutan.. kasi nagkaron ng impact un sa life ko.. ahihi.. :) aun.. basta.. happy new year po sa inyong lahat!!.. maging maganda din sana ang start ng year nio!!.. take care!!.. God bless to all of you!!..

same old day..

2005-12-29T03:41:00.000-08:00

hello!.. ahihi.. pasensya na po kung medyo walang sense ang mga pino post ko dito over the past days.. ahihi.. pero pagdating ng 2006.. madami pong changes dito sa blog ko!.. ahihi.. excited na ako!!.. :D anyways.. salamat nga pala po sa mga friends ko na nagbigay sa akin ng gifts nung christmas.. ahihi.. salamat din sa mga bumati sa akin.. ahihi.. anyways.. sa 31.. may blog post siguro ako na sobrang haba.. hahaha!!.. parang ending!?.. ewan ko lang..

aun.. ngaung araw na toh.. puro ps2 lng at computer pinagkaabalahan ko.. wala naman kse magawang ibang bagay dito.. ahihi.. di din ako makalabas ng bahay.. hahaha!!.. aun.. knina.. tumwag sa haws namin c teacher noel!.. ahihi.. kala ko nga kung sino.. aun.. nakipag-usap sa akin.. haha!!.. tapos.. aba!!.. gusto makipag kwentuhan tungkol kay *weeeee!*.. haha!!.. natawa na nga lang ako ng tinanong niya ako ng "oh! ano na kayo ni *weeeee!*".. ahihi.. xenxa na po kung medyo censored.. di naman sa ikinakahiya.. kaso madaming mga.. *EHEM.* :D anyways.. ayon.. tapos binigay din niya agad ung fone kay raf (c bes).. ahihi.. onga pala.. nung time na un.. nasa bahay ni raf ang dau.. di ko lang alam kung buong dau.. pro andun sila.. gagawa daw sila ng booth nila.. haha!!.. kami.. sa section namin.. wala pa nga kaming budget para sa booth nmn.. pero aus na lahat.. :D booth na lang talaga.. keln kaya??.. aun.. tapos.. nung 26 nga pala.. ng exchange gift ung mga ka guild mates ko.. kaso wala ako.. ka exchange gift ko pa naman c raf.. hahaha!!.. kaya nakaupo lang daw siya dun habang ng e-exchange gift silang lahat.. haha!!.. xenxa na po.. :) aun.. pagkatapos namin ni raf magusap.. ng ol na ako.. nag-ym.. nakipag chat.. haha!!.. tapos.. ng offline din agad.. then.. tinapos ko na yung second layout ko dito sa blogspot.. post ko po xia dito pagdating ng 12 midnight ng december 31/january 1.. haha!!.. basta.. 2006 ko po xia i po-post.. for one month siguro un.. or hindi.. depende sa mood at sa homeworks/schoolworks/exams.. ahihi.. xempre.. studies lagi
una.. haha!!.. corny!! :)

haaii.. uhm.. sige.. bukas na lang po ulit..

Missing Him...

2005-12-28T02:08:00.000-08:00

haaii.. this day is so boring.. xe.. for teh whole day.. naka harap lng ako sa monitor.. busy doing the layout for my webby.. mejo worth it nmn.. ahihi.. kea nga.. busy ung fone nmn for the whoel day.. dhil dun.. tpos.. if ever ng ring ung fone.. di ako ung sumasagot.. pinapasabi ko n lng sa sasagot na.. if ever the call is mine.. pki sabi n lng may ginagawa.. which is true naman.. haaii.. hirap gumawa ng webby mo.. lalo na pg beginner k lng tlga.. tpos bigla mong pinush yung self mo over professional work.. ay grabe!!.. malilito ka.. buti na lng.. mejo naiintindihn ko pa.. i feel tired.. sobrah!!.. for the whole day, i was only typing, clicking the mouse, and looking in my monitor.. un lang.. kaya feel ko.. yung radiance nung monitor sa eyes ko.. grabe na!!.. kaya siguro.. mas lalo pang lalala ang eye problem ko.. ahihi.. wag nmn po sana..

sa ngaun.. i'm actually finding a right host for my site.. gusto ko ksi mging successful ung first webby ko.. ksi una sa lahat pinaghirapan ko un.. ako gumawa lhat 99.9%.. ung .1% cguro.. codes na gling sa dynamic drive.. un ung code pra sa anti right click.. ahihi.. :P un lng ata ang hindi ko ginawa ehh.. pro the rest.. ako na talaga.. ang ganda ng backgorund ehh!!.. haha.. kapal eh noh!?.. anyways.. enough about my upcoming webby.. i don't want to look like i'm so over excited about it.. but it's actually the truth.. LOL.

for the past 2 days.. i have been quiet.. and serious.. pero.. di lang nmn un ehh.. i just miss someone.. hoo.. ahihi.. but it's fine i guess.. babalik din nmn un.. new year is sooo near.. di ako excited actually.. just like what i felt for christmas.. sad ata ang ending ng year ko.. haha!!.. :D well.. ok lng un.. basta.. i'm gonna make this coming year.. my best year.. ahihi..

ohh.. cge.. byebye na.. gotta bounce out.. tc!

My Masterpiece.

2005-12-26T23:44:00.000-08:00

whew!!.. making your own layout is quite hard.. especially for a beginner like me.. but the long work was all worth it anyways..see what i have made.. ahihi.. i feel proud i have made my own skin.. made by my pure fingers through typing.. hehe.. soo.. i think i'll be making some more.. maybe someday.. you'll be using my layouts.. haha!! :P anyways.. christmas is over.. i received my gifts and some cash.. but i didn't quite feel the christmas spirit.. *sigh* ahihi.. but that's fine.. i guess..

soo.. continuing.. i hope this NEW blogger would work.. cause my first one here at blogger was a failure.. i hope this one would be a success.. ahihi.. soo uhm.. if ever you have read this.. please leave me your url's.. ok? i would be glad to link you in my page.. :D

well.. i would like to thank laura.. hihi.. she helped me in some stuff here in blogger.. since i'm a beginner and she is a professional.. ahahaha!! :D thanks laura!!.. :) you're such a big help..

soo.. have to go now.. and be back later..

FIRST REAL POST.. :P

2005-12-17T19:15:00.000-08:00

good day fellow earthlings!! :D haha!!.. *sounds alien-y.. LOL.* i feel happy and full of energy today.. reason? too much chocolates. LOL. hahaha!! ok.. well.. today is sunday.. december 18, 2005.. and i am counting down the days before christmas!!.. yey!!.. gifts!!.. haha!!.. just kidding.. :) anyways..
i woke up early today.. around 3 i guess.. because i have to attend the morning mass in our church at 4.. and it's traditionally called "simbang gabi".. i felt like not going at first.. but i still decided to go.. and it's only my 2nd time to attend "simbang gabi".. when we arrived at the church.. it was jam packed with people.. of assorted types.. hehe.. almost all kinds of people are there.. but me and my mom still managed to get inside the church despite the great heap of people.. haha!! :D but when we entered.. too bad there were no more seats available.. so we had to stand througout the mass.. and as the mass started.. i remebered something funny on my first time to attend "simbang gabi".. it was a year ago.. and same time.. same church.. so we had our mass.. and at the middle of the homily of the priest.. i fainted.. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!.. i felt weak.. i guess it's because of the cold weather and lack of sleep.. and this morning.. when the priest was saying his homily.. i almost fainted.. but luckily.. i didn't.. haha!!.. gosh.. memories.. hehe.. anyways.. teh mass finished at around 5 am.. then we went home.. and as soon as i reached my bed.. i took off my stilletos.. took my iPod from my bedside table and plunged the headphones to my ears..and threw myself to my bed.. and well.. i slept again.. hahaha!! i'm such a sleepy head!!! :) so.. technically.. i slept with an iPod in my ears.. then i woke up at around 9.. with the earphones still in my ears.. i quickly took it off.. and told myself that i was so stupid to sleep with an iPod in my ear.. thankfully.. it's still fine.. and not broken.. :) so.. i changed clothes.. went to the cr.. brushed my teeth and washed my face.. ate my breakfast.. and did the morning dishes.. hehe.. doing some good deeds in the weekends.. LOL. then after that.. i turned my computer on and went online.. chatted.. blahblah..

ok.. speaking of memories.. i found myself a while ago thinking of things in the past.. and thinking of my present life.. i tried to compare it.. and seemed way too different.. back then.. i always look into the future.. i always look forward to new things.. i guess i never gave present situations in my life an importance back then.. but now.. i don't look forward to the future anymore.. i only think of the present situations now.. i don't know if it's right or wrong.. all i know is that.. i really don't want to expect things to happen the way i think it should be.. you know.. looking forward to the future and stuff.. sorry if i'm being redundant.. :) but anyways.. life has taught me the greatest lessons in life.. i learned many things that books and other stuff don't teach or write.. so.. all in all.. experience is still the best teacher.. :) i am so EMO..
and now.. as days are going fast paced.. with my life constantly flowing with it.. i find myself counting down the days before the new year.. the year of 2006.. the year of i-don't-know-what-animal-is-it.. and every year.. i tried to put up things that we call "new year's resolution".. well.. for me.. it is very uneffective.. even if i put dozens of post it notes on my mirror to remind myself of changing this to that.. i still forget to follow it.. silly me.. so basically.. i am not a girl who follows life with a post it note.. i do my life the way i want it to be.. no hassles.. no notes.. no plans.. just plainly.. being me.. hihihi.. :D

ok.. enough on all the drama of my life.. haha!!.. and now.. uhm.. lemme think first.. hmm..i am clueless.. so i have to say byebye.. hehe.. tc guys..

explanations.

2005-12-16T05:51:00.000-08:00

ok.. fine.. i'll explain.. this is not yet done.. so uhm.. don't visit this until i say so!!.. ok??.. well.. that's all.. so.. laterr.. imma fix this more.. :P